Off day

It's really not to my liking that I always tend to blog when I'm melancholic. But that usually how it goes, is it not? You tend to ponder about life, wallow in your strings of emotions only when you are at the bottom. Once you get back up, once you get to taste that euphoria feeling at the top, you simply forget.

Manusia mudah lupa.

I was not feeling well. No, I was not unwell as in 'sick'. I just felt off. It's been like that for some time now.

L saw that phone charger photo on my instagram and asked, "You feel like..hanging? Tergantung?" 

Hmm, that, maybe.

[Dont worry L, it's not because of you. Of course I was not happy being at one side of South China Sea and you at the other, with once monthly weekend rendezvous which lasts less than 60 hours, but I was prepared for this. I can still bear the tension. It was not ideal, but I was not particularly depressed about our LDR. For now. Heh.]

I kinda felt detached. Disconnected. Kot. Couldn't fully fathom how I feel.

I hated this.

I have to get back on track, hit the refresh button or I'll sink further. To the very bottom. Which is not a nice place to settle in. Nasty place down there. If you are not being careful, you may never rise up again.

So lets get the hiking boots on asap.

Dear Allah, 

I miss You.