Diary entry #1

Kata cik Fuze,
"Kalau rindu tak semestinya kena cakap. Duduk diam-diam. Cakap dalam hati".
But this feeling is so alien to me that I have to blog about it.
I cant tell anybody else, you know how secretive i can be.
I miss him.
Jangan tanya siapa.
Denda RM10 akan dikenakan setiap kali ada pertanyaan yang berkaitan diutarakan.
Pretend like you didn't read this.

Hey Cik Karma, stop playing with me, please!

Give me reasons, -

I remembered black skies, the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash as time began to blur
Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide

There was nothing in sight but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide, the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes across this new divide

In every loss, in every lie, in every truth that you'd deny
And each regret and each goodbye was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide
Across this new divide, across this new divide

- I need them. Badly.

Enough is enough.

Sebut lagi perkataan j*** m**** itu aku caj rm5!
Serious.

Admitted.

Fallen and hurt.

I hate karma.

Muuuaahhhhx!!

To my dearest Anith,

Thanks for the pressie weh~

You made my day!!! :D
*smiling ear to ear*

Crushed & Crashed

Today I followed Suraya to watch KLDC's practice at Mont Kiara.
I think it's obvious that I have a thing for drummers.
Mereka sangat cool....plus handsome.
Well, not all, but this one guy I met today sangatla menarik hati. Hahaha.
I nearly have a crush on him when Suraya said,
"tak silap aku dia dah kahwin la."
Oh thanks a lot, Suraya. There goes my crushing moments...
blown away by the summer breezeeee~
Anyway, the probably-married guy bagitau kitorang yang new intake boleh masuk next week, and you tak payah ada basics pon takpe, pastu pasal fees & everything.... I'm still considering
NAK JOIN KE TAK?????
What do you think? Problem is, I dont think I have the time to practice. Tapi every Sunday je pon. Arrrrrr....nak join ke?? I'm so bad at making decisions that in the end selalu terbiar je..which means i will most probably tak join pon. Dah dapat agak dah.

After that we (me with Suraya & Kilod, you silly, definitely not with the may-even-be-a-dad guy!) went to Stadium S.Alam..
Apa lagi...go-cart!!
Anum, Amy, Jalwa & Min pon join.
Fun fun fun fun fun fun!!!
I got 2nd though. Cesssss itu Suraya bawak laju gile!!!
Nevermind I'll get her next time.

hey: Ini kisah budak tak sedar diri ada test yang maha susah hari Khamis nanti.

Where I get to know ragging, toing, eskep, bejot....and a lot more.

Copied the survey from Anum. Sebenarnya nak tulis pasal benda lain tapi takpe, we'll save that for another time.

1) Which school did you go to?
STF

2) What classes were you in?
1 Jujur 2 Setia 3 Tegas 4 Setia 5 Setia
(Yer, aku tak pernah Feminin ataupon Bersih)

3) What was/were your favourite lesson(s)?
English. Boleh tido dgn bahagia.

4) If you could remember, what time was your recess?
I have no idea. But i do remember eating tempe goreng with sambal at class.

5) List down your favourite food/snacks.
Mamee!! (Siap ade Club Penggemar Mamee lagi. Naib presiden ok)
Choki choki. Tofi Luk. Keropok roda yang masin. Owh dgn biskut yg cam rokok yg orang jual 10sen satu tu.

>Student Life<

1) Did you have a nickname way back in high school?
Duhh, of course. Zaman ini lah bermulanya legacy Smak/Smaku..

2) How did you wear your socks?
How? There are different ways of doing that?

3) Have you been suspended due to the way you put on your uniform?
Ahhhh....kisah lama tak payah la dikenang kan...

4) Were you given plenty of reminders about your appearance?
No I dont think so. I looked pretty normal - geeky, in fact. I tried to stay invisible, especially to the wardens.

5) Who did you look up to when you were in high school?
A couple of seniors who had everything - looks, brains, talents, charisma, etc etc. I wonder what they lack of - nobody's perfect, no?

>Punishments<

1) Name one memorable scene where you were punished in front of the whole class.
Time form5. PakYem yg disayangi itu caught a few of us menyanyi dgn gembiranya kuat2 time prep pastu suruh berdiri depan the whole form4 class suruh nyanyi balik. Juniors dgn blur nye tengok...

2) How many times did you skip class? What were you doing?
Skip class eh..hurm..tak pegi prep class banyak la. Class jarang kot. Tader keje nak dok dorm sorang2.

3) Give one scene where you escaped from being= caught/punished?
OMG this is embarrassing tp pernah nyorok dalam wardrobe penuh dgn pail time warden check dorm. Semata2 nak skip ko-ko. 2 orang pulak tu dalam satu wardrobe. Pastu dalam wardrobe tu pernah ade hamster senior mati. Sangkar die still ade. Scary kot.

4) Did you vandalize any school property?
Who doesn't?

5) Did you ever make any teacher cry?
Individually, tak pernah kot. Collectively as one batch, pernah kot.

>School Staff<

1) Who was your favourite teacher?
No one, really. They are all the same to me.

2) Describe your headmaster.
Bonda Halimah Shaaban. Tidak meninggalkan apa2 impresi yang boleh diceritakan. Oh maybe the weird speech tone. Macam zaman dolu2 tapi semua headmaster mcm tu kot.

3) Who was the funniest/weirdest/loudest teacher?
Funniest: En Syamsul kot.
Weirdest: Pak Yem.
Loudest: En Ujang! Hahahaha.

>Social Circle<

1) Were you popular back then?
Nope. As I said before, I tried to stay invisible.

2) Were you in a big group of boys/girls or small ones?
BIg and small.

3) Who were your best friends?
A lot. The big & small groups.

4) Did you and your friends have nicknames?
Group name? Got one - Niners.

5) What were your favourite memories of you and your friends?
Duhhh. I need thousands of words to list them all. Senang citer sume la, e.g: time jadi Cadets, Sumbangsih, PMR, SPM, time stay up, rule-breaking moments, etc etc

>Co-curricular Activities<

1) What type of CCA were you in?
I've been in & out of almost everything. Band sekejap mase f1, pastu KRS kot, pastu PKBM(L). Clubs include ELS, Unesco, Bahasa Jepun, Sejarah & Geog. Games .. volleyball & badminton.

2) What did you have to bring to your CCA?
Blur sekejap. Kena bawak ape???

3) What did your CCA required you to do?
Sangat banyak benda yang tak pernah buat sebelum tu. Huhu.

4) Got injured?
No, nothing serious. But I fainted for the first time in my life during a band practice mase form1. I learned to never skip breakfast when you know you have to stand still for long hours under matahari yang terik. Padan muka diri sendiri.

>Closing Ceremony<

1) How did high school change you?
School did not really change me, it was part of me, made me who I am today.

2) Sing one verse of your school song.
Last sentences:
".....di bawah semangat dari urat nadi..Serikandi Tun Fatimah ah ahhh~"
English version: "....and be you pride..united we stand, Tun Fatimah~"

3) What was your favourite question?
"Siapa nak pegi dining hall???"

4) Who/what will you remember from your high school?
0004.

5) Any memories you will not forget?
Pengalaman seminggu kena denda cuci toilet itu memang sukar dilupakan.