They say the best way to get to know someone is to travel with them.

So we did.

Boy, he really did get to know the real me. Haha.

Me + bulging tummy + unpredictable hormones + fever + flu + cough + backpain + long traveling hours = worst combination!

I was easily annoyed by even the smallest things. Where else is best to let out those feelings? On him, of course!

Fever, flu, cough.. feet and back aches. I vomited a number of times. Once on the plane. Imagine the horror.

We survived though. Barely. Haha.

Thank you, L. For your love and care throughout my bad times.

Thank you for your unwavering patience, even when dealing with the hard-headed me.

7 months of rainbows and a bit of a storm here and there. Hehe.

More to come, brace yourself!

Thank you Allah. 

Off day

It's really not to my liking that I always tend to blog when I'm melancholic. But that usually how it goes, is it not? You tend to ponder about life, wallow in your strings of emotions only when you are at the bottom. Once you get back up, once you get to taste that euphoria feeling at the top, you simply forget.

Manusia mudah lupa.

I was not feeling well. No, I was not unwell as in 'sick'. I just felt off. It's been like that for some time now.

L saw that phone charger photo on my instagram and asked, "You feel like..hanging? Tergantung?" 

Hmm, that, maybe.

[Dont worry L, it's not because of you. Of course I was not happy being at one side of South China Sea and you at the other, with once monthly weekend rendezvous which lasts less than 60 hours, but I was prepared for this. I can still bear the tension. It was not ideal, but I was not particularly depressed about our LDR. For now. Heh.]

I kinda felt detached. Disconnected. Kot. Couldn't fully fathom how I feel.

I hated this.

I have to get back on track, hit the refresh button or I'll sink further. To the very bottom. Which is not a nice place to settle in. Nasty place down there. If you are not being careful, you may never rise up again.

So lets get the hiking boots on asap.

Dear Allah, 

I miss You. 

The Day

29.8.2014

Alhamdulillah.

Alhamdulillah.

Alhamdulillah.

All praises be to Allah. 

I want to write more..there's so much to tell but I have to fetch my current favourite person from the airport tomorrow. Got to sleep early then. 

So this is a short note just to say thank you. 

Also just in case I forgot the date. Can always refer to blog. Haha.  

10..9...8..7..6..5..

Let the countdown begins!

I still remember a question from a friend, not too long ago, about my expectations from marriage. Honestly, I don't know what to expect. I like to think of myself as a realist. I know, I know, this is not entirely true but can you just let me get away with it this time? Haha. Realists have a firm grip on reality and can see things for what they are, not what they are told they are. 

Despite the rather unexpected and unfathomable storyline that led me to tying the knot in approx 5 days from now, I remain sceptical about marriage fairytales. I do believe in happily-ever-after, but my definition of eternal happiness, or even just happiness itself may not be the same as yours or most women's. 

So hmm, expectations..

1. Challenge. Obviously, marriage will be a huge challenge for any of us. This goes without saying. So I kind of expect a fair share of troubles/obstacles coming my way along with the vows made.  However with every challenge, comes, hopefully, growth. We shall grow beautifully together- isn't that is why there is such a thing as marriage?
2. Freedom. Yes, you read that right. Contrary to most (especially men), I expect freedom from getting married. I do understand the increased level of commitment, however, at the same time I think it will be liberating. From fitnah, mostly. I've had enough of gossips, matchmaking, scandals, etc. I am at that point where all those flirtings are no longer flattering. It is annoying. Especially when it comes from married men. Seriously, guys, get a hold of yourself. On another note, I also expect to be free to roam around planet earth, with the husband of course. I've always wanted to travel but is restricted simply because I'm a woman. It's hard for me to get permission from the parents to travel, even with a few girlfriends. Solo travel is out of the question. So mr husband is my only hope. Teehee. 

That's all I can think of for now. 

Marriage has always been a part of my life plan but I've never really looked or searched for love. To be honest, for me somehow love just happened to be around. Back then, I didn't expect to get into relationships, but then someone showed up. A few years ago I casually put a target to end my single life the latest at 27 years old, without any real plans, and looked where I am now. Marriage was not my biggest concern until I was about to get engaged last year, but alhamdulillah, He knows better. 

Love happens. Just as shit happens.

Seek, look for it, or stay still.

Doesn't matter.

If it's meant to be, it will be.

Kerana aku selalu lupa #17

Bahagia itu dari Dia.

Sedih itu dari Dia. 

Nah, sekarang kau tahu, 

Nak minta, mengadu pada siapa.

Here comes the Ys

Can I be totally honest?
Who am I kidding..Of course I can't. You'll never know who'll end up reading all the stupid ramblings you post online. But I'll be as honest as I can. As I always am.

Curious me really loves the question 'Why?' For me it's the most important W compared to the other four. Who cares about who, what, when or where. When it comes to life, we are the seekers of the reason why.

If Allah wills, I'll be married in a month's time. The event invites were out, and most of the replies I got (in private) came with the ultimate question. I wish I have the perfect answer for everyone, I really do. Just like you guys, I'd also like to know the exact reason why. Even L is dying to know, I know, despite his effort to pretend like he did not care. Heh.

But He, the Most Knowing never really showed me the model answer sheet. So I still don't have the perfect answer. I got some clues and I can make a guess, but that's all there is to it. Such is life, people. We do not have the answer for everything. All we ever did in life was making guesses and hoping they are the correct answers.

Not knowing has its charms, don't you think? So we can continue to seek. To learn. To accept.

Okay I think it's 2nd Syawal blues. Ngantok. Off to bed. To continue my babbles later when I'm in the mood.

Still attached

How to cut loose?

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