Move it.

Happiness 

is

a

choice. 

I'm going to make some significant changes in my life.
Towards my goals, insyaAllah.
May He grant me the strength and patience.

Custom made

You know how some people always get themselves into big, complicated mess?

I'm not them. I've never really been in any big trouble or conflict. 

Fall out of college? Never. (thank god)

Heartbroken, betrayed? Nope.

Serious medical illness? Alhamdulillah, no.

Jobless? Just for 4.5 months. Still bearable.  

Forever alone? Err, I hope not. 

But of course, there are bumps here and there. Life graph can never be a plateau. It's impossibru! 

Despite the sometimes bumpy ride, my life so far is still heading the way I picture it to be. 

Simply put, I had it easy...which makes me wonder.

Why wasn't I challenged? Am I neglected? 

Before all of you start to lecture me, I am thankful, everyday of my life, for everything Allah has given me. For I am nothing without Him. I am grateful for my life, in any way it has been or will be, but whenever I came across the saying,

"Orang beriman memang akan selalu diuji."

my reaction will be: 

"Terlampau kecilkah imanku, kenapa aku tak diuji sebegitu?"

You know when you love someone, you sometimes test them to see how they react. To see how much they love you. Well, maybe not guys, but women always do that. The point is, you test them because you care about how much they care. Make sense? 

Little did I know, that tests can come in all shapes and sizes, much like Lady Gaga's outfits. Those that may seem small to me, can be very significant to others, vice versa. As of right now, I think I'm currently facing one of the biggest obstacles in my life. I'd like to elaborate more on this, but it's nearing 12am and I've got to wake up before 6am tomorrow.

To be continued later,
or not.
Haha.

Surat Emak untuk Nenek

The most poisonous animal

So I was following rounds when Dr Goh, a medical specialist, upon seeing a snake-bitten patient, asked:
"Did you know what is the most poisonous animal on earth?"
I looked at the MO and he looked at me. Neither of us gave any answer, hoping it was rhetorical.
"It's human."
I was thinking of spider, snakes, scorpions...
"If you were bitten by human, even the most advanced antivenom or vaccines won't be very effective for the treatment."
At first I thought he was saying it figuratively but then I realised he was telling a fact from medical point of view.

Figuratively speaking, though, I think we are the most dangerous creature on earth.

Kerana aku selalu lupa #14

Pernah terfikir tak kenapa orang kafir zaman dulu tu beriya-iya tak nak masuk Islam? 

Sebab mereka tahu apa maksud syahadah. 

Apa yang datang dengan syahadah. 

Komitmen yang perlu mereka berikan. 

Mereka tahu Islam bukan perkara main-main. 

Tapi kita sekarang?

Hmm.

Sampai wujud ayat,

"Islam hanya pada nama."

Once you get into something, commit. 

O you who have believed, enter into Islam completely [and perfectly] and do not follow the footsteps of Satan. Indeed, he is to you a clear enemy.   - 2:208

I'm working on it.  

Kismis?

I think there's something wrong with my brain. Call me paranoid, but I keep forgetting things these days. Today I left my file somewhere in the hospital. I'm guessing it will be either in the store or ward. So right now I can't do my work hence the blogging. The other day I was nearly scolded by my preceptor because I forgot to pass her message to the staff nurse, and I lost the note she made for her. I deserve to be scolded actually.

I tried to make notes and to-do list. I downloaded "Do It Tomorrow" apps on my android. It helps, but not much. I'm always missing something.

I'm thinking memory problem, or maybe I'm just not focused. Maybe I'm not meticulous enough.

I'm naturally not a very careful, detail-oriented person. I always see the big picture rather than the small details. I still remember when I bumped into a friend, and she asked about a friend of mine, "Alaaa yang banyak jerawat tu." I was like, who? "Siapa yang banyak jerawat?" When she mentioned his name, then only I realized , "Oh haah.." I was not aware of the acne problem till that time when she told me (but it's quite obvious, according to my friend).

This is a major crisis, since in my line of work we really have to be detail-oriented. We can't afford to make mistakes. It's literally a matter of life and death.

It's even affecting my social life. I forget dates. Birthdays, anniversaries. Which usually piss people off. Sorry, everyone.

I have to pay more attention to details, be more focused.

Lets do that. Lets try our best.

Anyone with tips for a better memory or keeping focus, feel free to comment!

Baby

Early this morning I was awakened by a call from a dear friend. She told me she had a big news to tell. 

Still half-asleep, reluctantly I said, "Go ahead, what is it?" 

"You want to try and guess first?" she asked. 

Then it came to me, "Are you pregnant?" 

She laughed. Which confirmed my suspicion. 

"I can't believe it. Right now it must be a lump or something, since it is still too early. But I just did the test once, so I better go and see the doctor to confirm."

Alhamdulillah, I am so happy for her. If it is true that a baby is on the way, I better start saving from now. For future niece/nephew(s). :)

The one & only photo of baby me.

"Dialah yang menciptakanmu dari tanah, kemudian dari setitis mani, lalu dari segumpal darah, kemudian kamu dilahirkan sebagai seorang anak, kemudian dibiarkan kamu sampai dewasa, lalau menjadi tua. Tetapi di antara kamu ada yang dimatikan sebeum itu. (Kami perbuat demikian) agar kamu sampai kepada kurun waktu yang ditentukan, agar kamu mengerti." - 40:67

Human creation is a miracle. I remember I once told someone that marriage is important, particularly for "kemandirian spesies":  
"If I did not get married, I'd be wasting such a good genetic make-up." Haha. :P