Still attached

How to cut loose?

6:32

I love Ice Blended Green Tea

I love ice blended green tea. 

It may not be the best drink out there, the cheapest nor healthiest, but I love it. 

You may think it’s too bland for your taste, too cold or just too weird, I don't care, you are entitled to your own opinion.

However if I want to order ice blended green tea, then let me be. 

I know how ice blended green tea is like - cold, bland and plain weird, 

but I find that suits my taste buds and I still like it.

Niat (part I)

Terdengar perbulan surau hari ni:

A: Cepatnya masa berlalu.. (sambil tengok jam)
B: Dah nak puasa dah.
A: Cepat masa berlalu, tak cukup amal lagi ni.
B: Sama lah, saya pon tak cukup lagi.
A: Kerja je dah 8 jam sehari, mana nak cukup amal. 

Rasa nak menyampuk, tapi orang tua bersembang tak baik menyampuk kalau mengikut adatnya. Lagipon tak kenal, saya kan pemalu. Hee.

Islam is a lifestyle, it's everything. Islam bukan hanya terletak pada solat, puasa, zakat, etc. Kerja, makan, tidur pon boleh jadi ibadah. Yang penting niat. But of course, kerja pon kenalah menepati hukum syarak, yang diredhai Allah.

Sebab tu buat apa pon, niat kerana Allah. Ruginya kalau tak niat keranaNya, semua jadi sia-sia.

Dalam hadis daripada Umar bin al-Khattab r.a, beliau berkata: Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda:

“Sesungguhnya setiap amalan itu hanya dengan niat. Dan sesungguhnya setiap orang hanya mendapat balasan mengikut apa yang diniatkan. Sesiapa yang berhijrah untuk mencari duniawi atau untuk mendapatkan wanita yang ingin dikahwini, maka (pahala) hijrahnya itu mengikut niatnya.” (Riwayat al-Bukhari).

Hmm, masyarakat dah biasa kaitkan agama hanya dengan hal fekah, syariat sahaja sedangkan agama tu cara hidup. Al-Quran sebagai guideline, Rasulullah S.A.W sebagai cikgu, contoh terbaik untuk kita ikut. Kat sinilah silapnya kita. Agama umumnya hanya dianggap sebagai salah satu subjek yang kena score A dalam exam. Aku macam tu lah dulu. Ingat lagi bila fail agama first test Tingkatan 1, ayah tanya, "Awak ni Islam ke tak?" Haha.

Entah sejak bila, Alhamdulillah diberi kefahaman sikit pasal Islam. Taklah study agama hanya untuk pass exam je. Sebab tu nak bagitahu, sebab dulu aku tak tahu. Rasa dia macam bila Air Asia ke MAS ke ada sale murah. Kena bagitahu orang. Kot-kot la ada orang lain yang tak tahu.

Sekarang dalam proses nak tahu lagi, nak faham lagi. It is not about just a religion. We are talking about life, the reason of our existence, our Creator. I don't feel right that we often take this matter lightly. Ala kadar je. Padahal itulah segalanya.

Tak dapat bebel kat makcik surau, bebel sini pulak. Haha.

Hmm. Tak kisahlah. Semoga bermanfaat. :)

The closest thing to us

For the first time ever in my life, I cried while driving. Like the scenes you see in those dramas. I can't remember the last time I cried that much. I just..let it out. I tried so hard to hold my tears back while I was having my lunch, but I didn't think I did it that well since the waitress actually stared at me. I must have looked like a weird, crazy woman, sobbing through my lunch. I didn't care. I had been distracting myself with work that morning, trying my best not to be bothered by what happened, but I just couldn't contain it any longer after I finished my work.

I was getting ready to go to KL when Bangah's text came in,

"Tak payah datang. Tunggu je kat rumah."

Then my SIL Whatsapp-ed,

"Ayahcik dah tiada."

Innalillahi wainna ilahi rajiun. What else could I say? We belong to Him and to Him we shall return.

We were caught off guard. It was too sudden. He was just warded on Tuesday. He passed away yesterday. The whole five-day period was just...lightning fast.

I couldn't forget what he said when I visited him in KPJ last Thursday,

"Selamat Pengantin Baru."

The first person ever to wish me, as if he knew he wouldn't be able to make it on the real day. I told him it was still a long time to go for my wedding, I reassured him that he would get better soon, InsyaAllah.

Little did I know that He has better plans for all of us. He loves him more.

First it was Wan, then Atuk, then Mak Teh, then yesterday, Ayahcik followed suit. I get what Emak always said now, regarding getting older. One of the things I hate most happened to be the thing that we have absolutely no control of - death of loved ones. The older you get, the higher the chances that you have to witness or be involved in such difficult situations.

 "The closest thing to a man is death." - Imam Al-Ghazali

Hang in there

Putting this here just for my revision.

Lucky, lucky me.

Thank you Allah, for all the amazing people I've met with. 

Especially you.

I wish nothing but the best for all of us. 

Blessed.

Sieze it

Dia bagi jalan.
Siap penunjuk arah.
Kalau tak ambil sekarang, nanti sesat lagi.
Kalau tak ambil sekarang, bila lagi?
Kalau tak ambil sekarang, sempatkah nanti?
Ada ke nanti?

Pasti?

Alhamdulillah.

Thank you Allah. Just when I need it most.

Indeed, You know better.